pissed.

damm freakin pissed right now.
stupid asshole downloaded games on my old laptop making it freakin laggy.
then, he spoilt the system.

SO, while i was attempting to transfer pictures in sec sch over, his laptop dies on me due to the freakin irritating system failure, now making me pissed.
plus it was erasing some shitass memory.

SO, if it erases my secodary school pictures, i will no longer have any pictures of myself or people in secondary school cos everything's there. meaning, all the memories of the best years of my life are gone.

freakin asshole.

p.s in my vocab asshole is the nicest term i have for that person right now

shopping.

went shopping with my family just now.
and, i blew about $100 on a top and skirt together. they match.
now what i lack to complete the look is boots.
i already love the outfit. it gives off a very rocker chic look, thus the boots.

then, went Sushi Tei for lunch. it was freakin empty at 12, but crowded at 12.30
damm funny. cos ma asked me to go queue first but it turned out to be empty.
then walked to Somerset area to shop, didn't go to Orchard Central, sadly.
but i got a hot pink jacket to wear in Shanghai!

in conclusion, i spent the most today. but its a fully subsidised shopping spree for me so no loss!

can't wait to go orchard with RN soon.

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hey i know not a lot of people read my blog, but it'd really help if you saw this and help me on the poll!

PAMELA'S MEDIA BOX

yupp. if you remember, let me tell you. it's opening this holidays again!
so, if you need download links or stuff like movie reviews, and stuff, you can check it out here!
BUT, i really need your opinion so that i won't be posting stuff that nobody reads!

that's all!
love y'all!

nowadays... its like shows i watch are a routine already.

Tuesday- HEROES Season 4 new episode (USA airs on monday)
Wednesday- Check out You're Beautiful preview
Thursday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
Friday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
+ IRIS new episodes whenever updated

the rest of the time-
MOVIES WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT.

so you people know i've watched New Moon. anyway, Today i watched Greta, acted by Hilary Duff. She's freakin PRETTY i swear. anyway, for people who don't know what it's about, its about this girl called Greta who wants to kill herself and stuff. but overall, it was relatively meaningful, though not exactly funny.

and YG just rejected a lead role for TOP in some drama. they say they're gonna use some Big Bang member though. but i don't think it's gonna be JIYONGie, so... no incentive to wait for it! hahahaha.

oh. and i think i'll start to listen to some chinese pop again... hahaha. Elva is freakin good. her vocals are like, WOAH. hahaha.

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TODAY

went to school for chem remedial.
after which, Kua said she was freakin disappointed in me. thinks my attitude in class and doing work is bad. she thinks cca is not what caused my results. and she gave me the benefit of the doubt that i don't know how to study instead of my results being the fact that i'm not doing homework properly and listening in class.
talk about harsh huh.
well, if it gives her the piece of mind that she didn't let me in VA for nothing, then so be it. but whatever.

i already feel like this is not my place. like i should be doing something more. at least learning stuff like designing, pottery, paint... you know. if i can't be an artiste, i wanna be an ARTIST. something like that. i wanna live in places like Milan, Paris, Miami, NYC...
somewhere where i get chances, opportunities. not here in a freakin island where the goal is to be homogeneous like the rest of the population here.

i'm sorry, but it's like sporeans are products by mass production. ready to be sold once you end your education. so freakin typical.

i don't wanna be normal and boring like everybody else.

stuff.

finally. the girl blogs again. hahahha.

i came across this line today. maybe i should share it with all of you.

Music is... a higher revalation than all wisdom and philosophy

it's like. something that comes to me. music plays that part in me. to me, its more important than anything else. and to live without it, life's just nothing.

anyway, today i watched New Moon online. and guess what i'm gonna say.
TAYLOR LAUTNER IS DAMM BUFF INSIDE. HOTTTTIIEE. but he belongs to Taylor, so....







i also caught a bit of Hannah Montana Movie. Lucas is CUTEEEEE inside. but he isnt that cute in real life so i kinda gave it up.

anyway, korean stars are wayyy cuter.
only thing is, this time Heng can't complain, cos i'm not talking about koreans.

and by the way, you people should totally catch MNet MAMA Awards 2009 if you haven't. 21st Street Musical was Fab! and Jiyongie has BLACK hair now!!! how cute is that!! anyway, i guess i can share some pictures of the happenings with you people, videos... maybe some other day.

why.

no pics, but let me tell you why i love LEE HONGKI.
1. he's damm cute
2. they say he's conservative = not wild
3. i love how he treated that lil boy on that STAR KING episode he attended.
and i love him cos i like guys like him. nice guys.

as for why i love CHOI JONGHUN.
1. he's also damm cute
2. he's the leader but strangely doesn't seek to stand out in F.T Island
3. he can play the piano and guitar and SING.
yet another cute guy. talented like jiyongie. good looking. just perfect.

songs post!

ok. these are not even in the poll, but my first time so first viewers of my blog get it first. please give me comments and i love you people! hahahahaha.







i thought you and i was pretty much screwd up by the way.
but i still think i don't sound good in any of them.
which is why,
I NEED YOUR COMMENTS!!!!!

something i read on a friend's blog.
it's by some guy called David Garrett if i'm not wrong.
he stated:

Music is the vacation of life. it is the moment where you do not worry or fear, just be yourself and do not care about anything except yourself at this time.

is this why i'm recoiling? because of how intoxicating music is to me that i'm starting to recoil. because i'm so fascinated by the beauty of it that i can't let myself be away from it?

by the way, i've started to try to write my own lyrics. don't think they're good, but there's always opportunities there for me to explore.

PW-ed out.

PICTURES FIRST!








omg. PW everyday is killing me.
i swear i'll die from it by monday.
and i can't wait for monday.

i've given up proposing to my mum.
maybe 2 months of vocal lessons can let me improve.
then i'll train on my own, then try out some audition.
SM maybe? cos it's global.
i can't believe i just said that.

anyway, i saw this picture today.

PIG-RABBIT!!! yay!!! hahahhahhahaha.
can't wait for next week's episode.
i love how ShinWoo treats MiNyu.
and i just love Jeremy's cuteness in the show.
makes me want to give him a big hug and pinch his cheeks. so CUTE!!!
and i'm tempted to irritate TaeKyung. it seems so fun.
but i hate the Jian Nu Ren. aka, Yoo HeYi. disgusting girl.

next topic! SHINee shounds weird without JongHyun.... Yesung's voice is so different from JongHyun's.... it doesn't give that much feel to Ring Ding Dong already.but whatever. as long as i can find more pictures of Key later.





i feel myself recoil.
i don't know why.
it just seems as if hanging out is not what i like anymore.
i have to find something else to bring me back.
to stop me from recoiling.

accomplished!

today when ah heng was at my house with serene, pearl and nguan han, i started watching BOF so ah heng had to watch it too! yayness! finally got ah heng to watch BOF. hahahhaha.
and guys' point of view of BOF is so different from girls. which actually makes the show funnier.
honestly, nh and heng's comments were so funny that it seemed wayy nicer to watch it.
and serene suggested i bring it to the class chalet cos 12 guys can give their hilarious comments. haha.

anyway, we were at YJ's hse with gabriel before that, and they played RockBand and GuitarHero. i didn't cos i never intended to go in the first place? serene dragged me there. hahaha. 'screaming' parts by NH were hilarious, and well, i guess it was kinda fun. esp trying to get 2 people together... hahahahhaha.

that's all for today! bye!

destiny is not determined by chances, but by choices.

i just read this today.
what will i choose?
something i love or the normal route.

but deep down i know i've chosen.
and somehow i get the feeling nothing will stop me from trying hard to attain it.