things i wanna do before 21.

kinda early, but it's a long list.

1. go to the movies alone. (sit in the cinema on my own)
2. perform on stage with a mass audience (singing/dancing)
3. home-stay in korea for 1 month
4. go for JYP, YG and... SM... auditions (kinda ahem, but i can't be fussy)
5. be kinda fluent in 2 other languages
6. own my own blog shop
7. learn hip hop and k-hip hop
8. play an instrument
9. join a spore singing competition
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the list goes on.

broke!

i'm broke. i'm broke. i'm broke.
i blew $100 today.
bought boots, singlet, 2beanies, shirt, tights.

i have no idea why i bought the shirt though. oh well, shall figure a way to wear everything someday.
one sad thing. laoshi is in korea, so there's no vocals tmr. but it'll be sometime soon i think. yayness for that. but i really wanna try other songs. hahahhahahha. wish this could last forever, then i stand a chance in CJSOPA performing crew next year maybe. then auditions in korea!!!!! yayness!
but that's just a wish. mum will never support.

anyway, for those feeling childish, go watch PLANET 51. it's a freakin retarded movie. it's retarded to the extent that it's funny. hahahha. was watching it last night. i think the funny parts are way better than the back, but oh well.

k. talk next time.

pissed.

damm freakin pissed right now.
stupid asshole downloaded games on my old laptop making it freakin laggy.
then, he spoilt the system.

SO, while i was attempting to transfer pictures in sec sch over, his laptop dies on me due to the freakin irritating system failure, now making me pissed.
plus it was erasing some shitass memory.

SO, if it erases my secodary school pictures, i will no longer have any pictures of myself or people in secondary school cos everything's there. meaning, all the memories of the best years of my life are gone.

freakin asshole.

p.s in my vocab asshole is the nicest term i have for that person right now

shopping.

went shopping with my family just now.
and, i blew about $100 on a top and skirt together. they match.
now what i lack to complete the look is boots.
i already love the outfit. it gives off a very rocker chic look, thus the boots.

then, went Sushi Tei for lunch. it was freakin empty at 12, but crowded at 12.30
damm funny. cos ma asked me to go queue first but it turned out to be empty.
then walked to Somerset area to shop, didn't go to Orchard Central, sadly.
but i got a hot pink jacket to wear in Shanghai!

in conclusion, i spent the most today. but its a fully subsidised shopping spree for me so no loss!

can't wait to go orchard with RN soon.

check it out!

hey i know not a lot of people read my blog, but it'd really help if you saw this and help me on the poll!

PAMELA'S MEDIA BOX

yupp. if you remember, let me tell you. it's opening this holidays again!
so, if you need download links or stuff like movie reviews, and stuff, you can check it out here!
BUT, i really need your opinion so that i won't be posting stuff that nobody reads!

that's all!
love y'all!

nowadays... its like shows i watch are a routine already.

Tuesday- HEROES Season 4 new episode (USA airs on monday)
Wednesday- Check out You're Beautiful preview
Thursday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
Friday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
+ IRIS new episodes whenever updated

the rest of the time-
MOVIES WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT.

so you people know i've watched New Moon. anyway, Today i watched Greta, acted by Hilary Duff. She's freakin PRETTY i swear. anyway, for people who don't know what it's about, its about this girl called Greta who wants to kill herself and stuff. but overall, it was relatively meaningful, though not exactly funny.

and YG just rejected a lead role for TOP in some drama. they say they're gonna use some Big Bang member though. but i don't think it's gonna be JIYONGie, so... no incentive to wait for it! hahahaha.

oh. and i think i'll start to listen to some chinese pop again... hahaha. Elva is freakin good. her vocals are like, WOAH. hahaha.

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TODAY

went to school for chem remedial.
after which, Kua said she was freakin disappointed in me. thinks my attitude in class and doing work is bad. she thinks cca is not what caused my results. and she gave me the benefit of the doubt that i don't know how to study instead of my results being the fact that i'm not doing homework properly and listening in class.
talk about harsh huh.
well, if it gives her the piece of mind that she didn't let me in VA for nothing, then so be it. but whatever.

i already feel like this is not my place. like i should be doing something more. at least learning stuff like designing, pottery, paint... you know. if i can't be an artiste, i wanna be an ARTIST. something like that. i wanna live in places like Milan, Paris, Miami, NYC...
somewhere where i get chances, opportunities. not here in a freakin island where the goal is to be homogeneous like the rest of the population here.

i'm sorry, but it's like sporeans are products by mass production. ready to be sold once you end your education. so freakin typical.

i don't wanna be normal and boring like everybody else.

stuff.

finally. the girl blogs again. hahahha.

i came across this line today. maybe i should share it with all of you.

Music is... a higher revalation than all wisdom and philosophy

it's like. something that comes to me. music plays that part in me. to me, its more important than anything else. and to live without it, life's just nothing.

anyway, today i watched New Moon online. and guess what i'm gonna say.
TAYLOR LAUTNER IS DAMM BUFF INSIDE. HOTTTTIIEE. but he belongs to Taylor, so....







i also caught a bit of Hannah Montana Movie. Lucas is CUTEEEEE inside. but he isnt that cute in real life so i kinda gave it up.

anyway, korean stars are wayyy cuter.
only thing is, this time Heng can't complain, cos i'm not talking about koreans.

and by the way, you people should totally catch MNet MAMA Awards 2009 if you haven't. 21st Street Musical was Fab! and Jiyongie has BLACK hair now!!! how cute is that!! anyway, i guess i can share some pictures of the happenings with you people, videos... maybe some other day.

why.

no pics, but let me tell you why i love LEE HONGKI.
1. he's damm cute
2. they say he's conservative = not wild
3. i love how he treated that lil boy on that STAR KING episode he attended.
and i love him cos i like guys like him. nice guys.

as for why i love CHOI JONGHUN.
1. he's also damm cute
2. he's the leader but strangely doesn't seek to stand out in F.T Island
3. he can play the piano and guitar and SING.
yet another cute guy. talented like jiyongie. good looking. just perfect.

songs post!

ok. these are not even in the poll, but my first time so first viewers of my blog get it first. please give me comments and i love you people! hahahahaha.







i thought you and i was pretty much screwd up by the way.
but i still think i don't sound good in any of them.
which is why,
I NEED YOUR COMMENTS!!!!!

something i read on a friend's blog.
it's by some guy called David Garrett if i'm not wrong.
he stated:

Music is the vacation of life. it is the moment where you do not worry or fear, just be yourself and do not care about anything except yourself at this time.

is this why i'm recoiling? because of how intoxicating music is to me that i'm starting to recoil. because i'm so fascinated by the beauty of it that i can't let myself be away from it?

by the way, i've started to try to write my own lyrics. don't think they're good, but there's always opportunities there for me to explore.

PW-ed out.

PICTURES FIRST!








omg. PW everyday is killing me.
i swear i'll die from it by monday.
and i can't wait for monday.

i've given up proposing to my mum.
maybe 2 months of vocal lessons can let me improve.
then i'll train on my own, then try out some audition.
SM maybe? cos it's global.
i can't believe i just said that.

anyway, i saw this picture today.

PIG-RABBIT!!! yay!!! hahahhahhahaha.
can't wait for next week's episode.
i love how ShinWoo treats MiNyu.
and i just love Jeremy's cuteness in the show.
makes me want to give him a big hug and pinch his cheeks. so CUTE!!!
and i'm tempted to irritate TaeKyung. it seems so fun.
but i hate the Jian Nu Ren. aka, Yoo HeYi. disgusting girl.

next topic! SHINee shounds weird without JongHyun.... Yesung's voice is so different from JongHyun's.... it doesn't give that much feel to Ring Ding Dong already.but whatever. as long as i can find more pictures of Key later.





i feel myself recoil.
i don't know why.
it just seems as if hanging out is not what i like anymore.
i have to find something else to bring me back.
to stop me from recoiling.

accomplished!

today when ah heng was at my house with serene, pearl and nguan han, i started watching BOF so ah heng had to watch it too! yayness! finally got ah heng to watch BOF. hahahhaha.
and guys' point of view of BOF is so different from girls. which actually makes the show funnier.
honestly, nh and heng's comments were so funny that it seemed wayy nicer to watch it.
and serene suggested i bring it to the class chalet cos 12 guys can give their hilarious comments. haha.

anyway, we were at YJ's hse with gabriel before that, and they played RockBand and GuitarHero. i didn't cos i never intended to go in the first place? serene dragged me there. hahaha. 'screaming' parts by NH were hilarious, and well, i guess it was kinda fun. esp trying to get 2 people together... hahahahhaha.

that's all for today! bye!

destiny is not determined by chances, but by choices.

i just read this today.
what will i choose?
something i love or the normal route.

but deep down i know i've chosen.
and somehow i get the feeling nothing will stop me from trying hard to attain it.

. . .

i dunno why.
recently just keep quarelling with my mum.
it's as if she doesn't understand me anymore.
she thinks whatever i tell daddy is an implication that i want something new.
and she freakin thinks some lame shit news reporting is a good job for me.
doesn't she know that what's good for me might not neccessarily be what i want???
doesn't she know that i want to have a shot at my dream instead of "wake up and come back to reality"
it's like she puts everything i say as some pathetic, childish remark i'm making instead of treating me seriously.
what if singing is REALLY the thing good for me?
what if it is what will give me true happiness?
what if it is supposed to be the path for me to take?

chinese paper is monday and i havent started studying.
i'm so screwed.
and i'm damm worried about my dearest Caroline.

before i continue, URGENT ADMIN MATTERS!
i wanna mention, i only owe BIQIN, DAFFY, DIANE, YANNGEE, XIAOYUN bubble tea cos u saw my blog before my results were out.
and i'm being damm nice already. cos i'm actually ADVANCED to j2 only. not promoted.
so be grateful.

back to my stuff.





i swear i'm starting to like Choi Jong Hun a lil' more now. cos he's the leader of F.T ISLAND but he doesn't seek to stand out, he's good looking, he's only 2 years older than us, and HE PLAYS THE PIANO!!!!!
that's like the biggest incentive can...
plus he likes a more tomboy-ish girl, not those bimbotic ones, which makes it better cos i'm not so delicate. hahahahhahaha.

but i still love JIYONG ok. hahahhahaha.

anyway, mass picture spams for those who read.

ME STUFF

hi everyone! as i'm so bored today cos the subs for you're beautiful and iris are not up yet, i shall share some ME STUFF to you people!!
but, to keep it not so ALL ABOUT ME, i'm gonna centre around MUSIC! the nicest thing this world has.

MY TOP 5 BOY GROUPS:
1.TVXQ
2. BIG BANG
3. F.T ISLAND
4. SHINee
5.SS501

MY TOP 5 GIRL GROUPS:
1. 2NE1
2. WONDERGIRLS
3. SNSD
4. F(X) maybe. i mean, they're not bad...
5. BROWN EYED GIRLS i have no idea what else to put. anyway, Abracadabra's nice

MY FAVOURITE FEMALE SINGERS:
1. TAYLOR SWIFT
2. LEE HYORI
3. BoA
4. PARK BOM surprisingly.. but she only has a single so...
5. KELLY CLARKSON

MY FAVOURITE MALE SINGERS:
1. G-DRAGON he tops cos he has a solo album
2. JAEJOONG!!
3. JESSE MCCARTNEY
4. JANG GEUN SUK
5. NIL

THE TOP 5 MOST PLAYED SONGS ON ITUNES:
1. HEARTBREAKER -GDRAGON [44]
2. HUG -TVXQ [36]
3. MIROTIC -TVXQ [24]
4. I DON'T CARE -2NE1 [21]
5. COLORS~ MELODY AND HARMONY -JAECHUN [13]
5. TAXI -TVXQ [13]
5. LA CHA TA -F(X) [13]
5. BODYGUARD -SHINee [13]

shockingly, there's no BIGBANG! i was shocked too.

MY FAVOURITE ARTISTES AT THE MOMENT:
1. JAEJOONG
2. KWON JIYONG
3. CHOI JONG HUN
4. PARK BOM!
5. JUNSU -character only. before u say anything.

MY FAVOURITE SONGS ATM [MALE]:
1. 여전히 -A.N JELL
2. COLORS~MELODY AND HARMONY -JAECHUN
3. LET ME HEAR YOUR VOICE -BIG BANG
4. RING DING DONG -SHINee
5. I HOPE -F.T ISLAND

MY FAVOURITE SONGS ATM [FEMALE]:
1. YOU AND I -PARKBOM
2. 말도 없이 -PARK SHIN HYE
3. LOVELY DAY -PARK SHIN HYE
4. MOTION -SNSD
5. DASH GIRL -YOON EUN HYE




k that's all for today people.
how about this. the more tags i get a day from different people, the more pictures and posts i'll put. hahahhahahhaha.

MUSIC VIDEO DAY.

hi y'all!
today YG Entertainment, the best entertainment industry in korea to me, released BOM's music video as well as BIG BANG's new jap song music video.
BOM's one is kinda sad, but she's so pretty!!!
as for BIG BANG... AHHH!!!
the only part GD gets is a rap near the end, and he has to share it with TOP!!
so unfair right... and he looked so darn good in the music video, from whatever measly part that showed him.
but the song is still dammm good. i'm serious.

anyway, i'm happy that the court is in favour towards the dong bang members so far with respect to performances and stuff...
and guess what?? JAEJOONGie's Heaven's Postman has pushed forward airing date to the 12th of November!!!

seems like everything is going well.
and i'm in an especially good mood cos tomorrow's thursday!
which means i can watch IRIS and YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL at last!! yayness!!

k. enjoy the music videos. i'll be back soon to post other stuff. but expect me to continue going on about k-pop for awhile.

CRUEL KOREAN TV.

i don't hate it. but it's so cruel. it's making me wait for all my precious wed/thurs dramas!!! and so now i have nothing left to watch. until thurs/fri when the subtitles come in.

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!!
i think i'm gonna die while waiting.

anyway, for you people who have no idea what are the shows i'm talking about, check them out below.







i just started watching this yesterday. it's damm funny. hahahha.
but it's like piecing parts and ideas of shows then making it out.
for example, it seems like there are bits and pieces of shows like COFFEE PRINCE and BOF.
but it's nice. you guys should watch it.

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this has got to be my favourite. IRIS!!!!
it's damm good. you people should watch it too!!
its like so much action. something like a korean version of Heroes, minus the superpowers and you're dealing with assassins in this case.



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in short. korean entertainment is still killing me. how can i wait till thursday to watch them? they're too good to stop halfway!!! ahhhh!!!!!