ignore.ignore.ignore.

i just need somewhere to rant.
was randomly browsing through pictures recently, then it occurred to me.
when will i ever be as slim as all the other girls?

then the answer in my mind struck. never. i'm never gonna be as pretty, slim and gorgeous as them.
i'm like growing fatter by the minute and nothing i do will help.

i then start to hate myself.
for eating so much, for not controlling, for not exercising, for not being slim, for not being pretty.
i know it seems shallow, but apparently i'm someone who thinks like that.

this is so depressing.
and my mum ALWAYS thinks i'm angry at my family when i'm not.
i'm pissed off at myself. i hate myself for being like that.
and i really don't know who to talk to.