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shit ass day. is it all the teachers wanna talk to pamela day?
first ms soh. but ended up not talking to her. postponed. OMG. have no idea what's it about.
second, horsey. that Bi-atch. ok. sorry. seriously very pissed. seperate me and carol. right. that's so NOT gonna happen. so tomorrow i'll fake listen in class and shut up. but seriously. we're old enough to take care of our studies right. so i don't know why she's such a [blank]. not as if she's permanent.

then. comes the part where i can honestly say i'm not gonna go boy crazy over him anymore. hahas. so not fun already. cos it's not fun when people are going about telling the entire world even though i'm partially guilty of it too. last time.

luckily met up with xu and maureen. took all this shit out of my mind.
we were talking bout guys and previous crushes and stuff. and OMG. interesting. hahas.
school's boring without an eyecandy, so not actually looking forward to it like i used to. hahas.
maybe if we go to cjc on friday i might find some cute band guys. hahas. NAH.
pamela is attractive to look at already
hahas.
=D

TEN THINGS.

below are 10 things i would hope to do:

1. start a study group to STUDY

2. self study and mug

3. stop thinking about irrelevant stuff

4. slim down

5. catch up with my studies

6. play basketball regularly with class people

7. go window shopping with Ruo Ning, Caroline, TTC and Maureen

8. stop going boy crazy [with the exception of Zac Efron]

9. get a nice break from band

10. join singapore idol for fun???

Ten things i would like to achieve by the end of the year:

1. a report card showing i passed my promos and have been promoted

2. complete NYAA silver

3. a huge teddy bear. bigger than mine at home

4. being pro at the trombone

5. ability to write beautifully [scripts and stories]

6. sing better [i still think my singing sucks]

7. to learn how to dance!!!!

8. to be out of shit ass fun club and at least look less fat

9. to save enough money for mass shopping sprees

10. to have a great guy who'll love me for me.

about the previous post................
seriously. i dont care. look at my face. hahas.
anything can happen and i can't be bothered. much anyway.
firstly is cos i think my feelings have not been sorted out right from XXXX. ccks people will know. i think.
secondly. it's stupid to hide a pic when maureen has done a good job right???

so it has nothing to do with me trying to achieve anything.
i'm so "innocent" can? hahas.

anyway, i think my only LOVE is TTC at the moment. and carol of course. hahas.
but i'm STRAIGHT.
so yeah. cleared it up? hahas.
i hate clearing up such stuff. makes me seem so pissed of and emo when i'm not. in fact. i'm emotionless at the moment. hahas.

speech day 2009

what happened to the pic??

XL pose. hahas.

i look weird. with KEE WEE, CY and XW and of course, XL!!

TTC successful shot. SUPER COOL RIGHT.

BQ. closed your eyes?? hahas. OMG. miss Cheng Yiin's crap!

TTC + eden, QD and Mel

4/6 '08 my sweet beloved people.

eating. slacking. catching up. having fun.

i was tired.... hahas

what's with my face... hahas. and daffy. EEW.

toots!!! mel and kenny. hahas.so crap.

no comments. i think i look weird..

is it impossible to get a TTC pic?

where's YIXIU? late!!

what's with XL. i look weird. OMG.

i give up backspacing the spaces away.

i looked freaky. and BQ... UNGLAM!

4/6 my dear.

weekeat! xu! u ruined the pic!!! and so did mel.

weizhen and xu and me.

unsuccessful one. hahas.

us and the brothers.

hands? randomness.

stupid zi an.

lol! yanngee. lol lahs.

girls

how's my day?

today.... is an OK day.

i got kicked out of band SYF, which is what i want, but i just can't take it that they took so long to tell me.

ok. but maybe i'm a little sad and upset about it. but nothing can be helped!

and the school band's pathetic. cos they're playing SYF PIECES for 25th anniversary concert and College Day. how dumb is that? hahas.

at the moment? i'm in a wanna-excercise-to-relieve-my-upsetness-ice-cream-eating kinda mood. i seriously wanna have ice-cream. hahas. shall ask RUONING tomorrow. hahas. or maybe class people. hahas.

then there's schoolwork. i'm so dead.

i think i've come to a decision. it's the hopeless one. one of them.
____________[to be filled in by user]

maybe it's cos i got no confidence after the whole crap i went through in sec 2. also. never had this kind of luck. who'd like someone like me lahs. bad in all ways. not pretty, not slim, not girly enough. so ya. that can be summarised to hopeless.

if it works out, i'll treat carol to pizza hut as promised.
if it doesn't.... guess i'll just emo....
LOL!
nah...
i'm not that... you know.

anyway, i wanna take pics!!!
wanna take like one on one pics with everyone in class! ahh!!! hahas

tell me what u think.

close people will know who i'm talking about. hahas. shall name the people i'm gonna talk about A and B and C.

A.
cute.
tall.
dark.

B.
cute.
taller than me.
not very tanned.

C.
some unknown TDH person.

which one would you pick. it's like. both cases are utterly HOPELESS. but still.
i mean. there's this part where i don't feel like letting go now that i'm so used to it, then there's this other part that tells me to forget about it.

shall tell you after i've thought through. hahas.
for now, give me suggestions.

unprepared.

just saw carol's blog. Carol. you are so demanding. hahas. though i have to agree with most of the parts there. surprisingly, all i expect is the guy being taller than me. no specific height range. hahas.

just now i bought my new school bag from zinc and met up with maureen for lunch. hahas. it was super funny, cos she can't stand it that i told so many people. she thinks the whole world will know soon enough since i'm telling a lot of people outside of ajc. hahas. damm funny. i can't believe myself though.

then went home. sihan didnt come. mummy got me more post its from her office which only means... HEH HEH HEH.

overall. good day. could have been better if _________ [fill in the blank]
now i'm gonna start studying for physics

if you've been snapped when i was being super random and bored and you dont like it... hahas. its alright to say! hahas. anyway, people i'm not emo-ing.. just. it's stressful but a perfect way to vent it out. hahas.

besides, other stuff has been making me feel better, like the upcoming speech day at Cedans (no idea how to spell) and ___________. smart people will know. hahas. i think everyone knows who i'm referring to.

and. CAROL, it's gonna be tough to get that free Pizza Hut. hahas. but i'll gladly treat you if it really happens. hahas. like super happily.

tomorrow cjc people are coming and i suck at my playing. omg. im dead. OH WELL.

also, today, i got hold of Swiss Cottage YEARBOOKS. nice to see how Ah Heng and Gabby looked like last time. SUPER CUTE. hahas. and Gabby looks super super different. sad i dont have a scanner... or i'd scan all their pics and post them on my blog.

but im not EVIL, so i won't do it even if i have the scanner.

and i'm so gonna fail physics on monday. can we like go out study on sunday afternn or saturday night or smth? hahas.

confessions

stress from all directions.
from school. i'm failing every test.
from band. conductor's threats.
even from home. mum's displeasement with me.

everybody's stressing me out.
serious.
i'm gonna crack soon if it doesn't stop.

-pamela

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


something from a quiz i did on facebook. quite true. except for the part about me being organized. LOL. i am kinda sacarstic i think. hahas. see. i'm so honest. but i dont like sports.... hahas. but mostly quite true. hahas.

camp was not effective and boring. and the conductor says he's gonna take me out of syf if i dont get my intonation right. anyway, i don't care. kick me out for all i care. beats seeing his face for that long in one week. it'll kill me. he and his sarcasm. oh. and suaning my secondary school together with me. how great is that. whatever. now im left with loads of homework and tests to do and i feel like quitting band more than ever. well done you.

ahhh... i miss school.

lala~

HII!! pam's going away for camp till saturday night, so dont expect updates. hahas.

and i'm so gonna die when it comes to schoolwork. damn. hahas.
anyway,

today was damm fun. played MarioKart after ages and played multiplayer with YaoJuin and Gabriel. and of course, being me, i chose the cutest one ever, YOSHI!! hahas. YaoJuin chose this damm tough map- ok, maybe we noob...- then he's like super up front leaving me and gabriel falling off the lane like lots of times! hahas. damm funny. then played another map. i played before so i know... hahas. but YaoJuin still own us. hahas. proness. hahas.

ok. shall pack my bag now. and bring homework for camp. hahas.

i heart eyecandy.
give flower eat. -direct translation by pam.

lalala~

today was slack day, and i still have not started studying for my test. hahas. anyway, went for lunch with xuxu and xiaoyun. before that was on facebook doing some quiz on like which jc you're from. got SAJC on my first try, then modified a bit to get AJC cos that's what i wanted to TRY TO get. then decided not to cheat so went to change it back to SAJC. see... i'm so honest. hahas. ok. bye.

wait. i wanna complain. cos my com's super laggy and is taking forever to open the pictures in the iPhone. AHH...

AJC family day

today AJC Family Day Carnival was super fun. Prata Sausage is damm nice. hahas. and, i had loads of fun walking around selling stuff. the whole similar to gang fight way was hilarious lahs! hahas.

after that, apparently i was full of self appreciation and wrote stuff using masking tape and pasting it on my shirt. hahas.

oh ya. we were like, slacking in class and snapping pics. ps, brandon snapped the one of nicholas sleeping. hahas. and it was relaxing and damm fun. hahas. later on, xuxu and maureen came, i intro-ed them to our class people and they were so shy... like OMG. hahas. unlike them right? hahas.

hmm. what did we do after that.....
right. we slacked in the audi and finally, we went home after the event.

what a fun day it was today.