a singing girl

I MOVED!

2010-03-22T19:23:00.000+08:00

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fun day.

2010-02-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

hey my non-existent readers! (cos i know nobody reads this blog)
i'm back with a post.

had a headache so i didnt go for CCA. i can't believe i missed the ceramics workshop la!
anw, wanted to go home but ended up going dhoby ghaut.

i havent gone in damm long la.
and i wanna BUILD-A-BEAR too!!!
it's like shopping for a baby. omg! it's like so fun can. and funny too!
hahahhahhaha.
cos i didn't go alone. went with bear*.
*bear: caroline's bear

ok. anyway, we went SPOTLIGHT, then we were walking, and we found 2 movie tix on the floor. 3.15pm show. Avatar in 3D. just nice for 2 people some more! but being nice people, we left it there and went away. hahahhahahha. actually i think i'm the only nice one la.

one good thing for me. i bought daddy his birthday pressie and can pass to him tmr night!
it's a magazine, but it's damm expensive can!
hahahaha. even my CosmoGirl costs like $8-9 only.

anw, i shall go now. bye my sweet readers.
xoxo~

COLLEGE CIP

2010-02-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

college CIP today. at ECP, so guess how sleepy i am right now.

some reflections:
SOME smokers are assholes who are not considerate enough to throw their cigarrette buds away, and SOME drinkers suck cos they don't know where's the dustbin to throw their bottle caps away.
i hate them.
-end of reflection-

some thoughts on AFTER college CIP:

some dumb bus uncle seemed so reluctant on letting our class board the bus and kept trying to close the damn bus door and apparently it crushed me so wtf.
also, he made the damn bus ride so jerky that you HAVE to hold on to something not to fall.
some people are just so indecisive that even when one option is provided their still not happy with it and decide to split cos of it. may i ask, in that case what's the point of even discussing the topic? *i'm in an irritated mood*
i have to stop spending money. i'm broke.
i'm freakin fat and can't wear anything nice.
i LOVE bangles.

and thoughts AFTER, after college CIP:

I HATE SUPERJUNIOR AS I READ MORE ABOUT THEM.
people who don't respect others should not expect the same kind of respect on them. in fact, others should not even bother respecting these self-centred, air-headed people.

that's all.
can't wait for something tmr

ignore.ignore.ignore.

2010-01-30T19:12:00.004+08:00

i just need somewhere to rant.
was randomly browsing through pictures recently, then it occurred to me.
when will i ever be as slim as all the other girls?

then the answer in my mind struck. never. i'm never gonna be as pretty, slim and gorgeous as them.
i'm like growing fatter by the minute and nothing i do will help.

i then start to hate myself.
for eating so much, for not controlling, for not exercising, for not being slim, for not being pretty.
i know it seems shallow, but apparently i'm someone who thinks like that.

this is so depressing.
and my mum ALWAYS thinks i'm angry at my family when i'm not.
i'm pissed off at myself. i hate myself for being like that.
and i really don't know who to talk to.

neglected.

2010-01-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

i'm referring to my blogger being neglected.
:D
and i'm so sorry about it.

school's been a bore.
but today i ran a relay. like finally. never did that before.
hahahahha.
so anw. jc1s are in and they're cramming up the place. the canteen, toilets, EVERYWHERE.
which is freakin irritating.

oh and class people are saying i should join AJ Idol. but i don't think i'm good enough. Celine says i have a lot of bad habits when it comes to singing. must get rid of them first.
and quickly.

that's all i'm updating you for now. bye my sweet lil blog readers!

2010-01-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

secrets. hidden agendas. tutorials. harry potter. tests. math. lectures. fats. friends. beauties. jc1s.

i don't see anything else i could ask for.
but there are definitely a couple that brighten my days.

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i like you, yes i do.

awful.

2010-01-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

today's a kinda awful day cos of 2 things.

i went to change a dress, but brought the wrong receipt along. so i wasted my afternoon thinking of what to change the dress to
i can't do that dumb physics online electure, so i have to copy off someone
i haven't touched any work this weekend

dream.

2010-01-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

thinking back on life, i've never given up singing.
i know i have so many things to change about my voice,
but i'm still not giving up though the chance is slim.

whenever i sing, i wanna improve.
and it's not cos of the money spent on lessons. its cos of how much i really want to do this.

i've had many singers i adored. from Jolin, to the awesome Bommie.
singing is part of me. i can't do without it.
and that's probably why its still my dream.
i don't care about the hard work, as long as i get to sing. that's all to it.
not the riches or fame or whatever. just plain SINGING.

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and maybe i have an awesome singing teacher, Celine J! (think it sounds cooler like that. and shorter)
she's so fun and easy and she doesn't stress me or anything.
and another good thing, i'm doing You and I by Bommie NEXT WEEK!!
so when i'm done i'll let all of you hear, k?
though i still think my voice stinks.

and OMG OMG OMG. JOJO studies in Nanyang Poly!!! and Carol and i never saw her before!! dang. she's so near yet so far. [for those who dont know, jojo is my awesome mirotic dance teacher who is pretty and talented!]

and for those who've been to CJ, the receptionist is called Carmen. she's another awesome person! super friendly!

actually, the entire school's awesome. love it to bits.
if only i can stay there without having to stop learning vocals.

i hate open house.

2010-01-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

today was boring TTM!
slacked away, saw some band seniors again [missed them!]
i think sec sch one was more fun.

today, something happened.
different from the past year,
but one thing seemed to make me feel like smiling.
and all it took was a smile.
that dreaded feeling is back again.
dang.

extra

2010-01-12T22:03:00.002+08:00

i did extra for VA today so stayed till around 7.50
tmr's open house!

spent my day sms-ing today,
then at VA, i found someone who likes almost all the same Korean Stars as me!!!!
SHINee, Key, BigBang, G-Dragon, 2NE1, DBSK
super cool!! and kinda freaky cos we like practically all the same stuff.
tmr's gonna be like 1h lecture, then break all the way till time to prep for open house.
crazy time table. hahahha

anyway, i'm disappointed Heroes hardly showed Claire today, so...

you know you love me
xoxo

2010-01-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

hi my dearest world.
i'm dreading the start of school and i just saved pics of the hot Chace Crawford.

it's one of the few i saved.
btw, for people with no idea, i don't actually enjoy GossipGirl a lot.
it's... draggy.
so for me, HEROES is wayyy better

last. and i start again!

2010-01-09T20:36:00.002+08:00

hi all the gorgeous people of the world!
today i had my last dance class.
so, carol and i signed up for k-hiphop!
my ma's gonna kill me when she knows, but whatever.
it means i can dance more!!
which is a glorious fact.

oh and tmr there's church! whoopee!
i think im high. hahahhahhaha

oh. i think i should tell all of you this.
in the vampire diaries, i don't like Stefan, strangely.
i like DAMON! hahahhahhaha.
he's just so.... i dunno how to describe. just like him. hahahha

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btw, who has math tutorials to let me copy?
i have 0 intention to do now.

you know you love me
xoxo

issues, issues, issues

2010-01-08T10:58:00.002+08:00

so i can't find my old chem tutorials that i haven't done.
screwd.
and i spent one and half a day finishing the Vampire Diaries books. all 5 of them.
ebooks of course.
dang it.

so now im so dead when it comes to homework.
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anyway, Vampire Diaries books are wayyy wayyy better than the show.
the show's like so far off. i cannot even picture the show's storyline in relation to the books.
here are some differences between them:

DAMON liked Elena after that. he was NOT in love with Katherine anymore
the whole vampire blood thing is wrong. Elena had both Stefan and Damon's blood in her, and Katherine killed her >she became a vamp
Damon, Stefan and Katherine did not live in Mystic Falls. they lived in Italy. Elena lives in Fells' Church. there's no place called mystic falls AT ALL.
Bonnie is not African American. She's supposed to be fair with red hair
Damon NEVER NEVER NEVER once hooked up with Caroline
Elena's hair was blond. not brown

that's not all. but. you get the point. but the book is SUPER SUPER SUPER NICE.
serious. it's as awesome as the Twilight Saga.
and it's not draggy or anything. it's so awesone.
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next topic.
G-DRAGON is different from all the stars i like.
i support DBSK cos they're right and SM is wrong.
but for GD, i guess i'm just over-protective.
but hey. jail isn't something to joke with.
and here are my opinions:

it can't be GD's fault only. YG is at fault too. cos whoever chose to approve it is wrong too, so GD shouldn't be the only one going to jail
his fans shouuld expect that. his solo album was rated for 19+. at his concert, he's gonna sing songs from his album, right? so, shouldn't it be clear that the audience should be expecting something more geared for 19+ since his album was rated that????
in relation to 2, little kiddies should have guessed that and not went. if they did, that's their problem, so why blame it on GD
i hardly doubt only GD is involved in choreography of his concert. if GD is going to jail, shouldn't all those who choreographed be responsible for it too?
i just think this is absurd. people want to mature as artistes. can't korea be like, less conservative?
i don't see britney or gaga getting sued for inappropriate dressing for young audiences. why should GD stand as an exception to that.

you got it. i'm pissed at this issue. so i'm not gonna talk about it now. sometime later maybe.

for now,
bye!
you know you love me
xoxo

"factory"

2010-01-06T16:06:00.002+08:00

you're treat of yanngee before you read my post.

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yo people of the world!
yes i'm officially crazy. NOT.

anyway, today went to school for VA.
and worked like some factory worker doing kimono girls bookmarks for open house.
the paper's nice, but the work is freakin tideous.
after that had pizza with VA peeps, and honestly, i think i'll grow fat soon enough. more of fat-TER actually.

but hey! i exercise quite regularly now! :D
so proud of myself.

i know xuxu reads this blog, so,
FOR XUXU:
WHATEVER. i like SHINee more than 2PM.
oh, and THANKS MY DEAR! for tagging me in all the GD pictures!!
love him to bits. he's just so CUTTTTEEE!!!!

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i think it's time to cut my fringe. AGAIN.
and i still wanna shop.

oh and abt HEROES, strangely,
when watching the latest ep, before the last part
i decided something.
I WANNA SEE A CLAIRE-SYLAR ROMANCE!!!!!
i think it's quite unique. but dont ask me why i thought that.
it just popped into my head.
and i was kinda shocked at the ending. cos of claire's face on SYLAR's arm.
its like.... WOAH.
hope it's gonna happen~~~~

if it does, maybe i'm really psychic.

that's all for now!
you know you love me
xoxo

gossipgirl is getting to me.

blehs.

2010-01-05T22:14:00.003+08:00

out with maureen today!
went to orchard to shop!!!!!
wish i could find more shoess.... i love shoes...

extra bonus!! HEROES IS BACK ON!!!
YAYNESS!! I LOVE HEROES!!!

and dang it. i have school tmr. CCA.
ugh. how horrible that sounds...
hope i'll enjoy it!

you know you love me
xoxo

la~

2010-01-04T20:55:00.001+08:00

spent a whole day doing an essay outline and i'm still doing.
sian ttm!
oh and i need help with P&C.

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what should i train for the audition????
8 months left to my deadline.
my dream. i'm never giving up.

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a new decade.
a new life.
a new me.

and i'm gonna try to live differently from how i did.

i don't want to regret after the year's over. i don't want to regret what i didn't do, what i didn't get to experience.
i need new space to grow.

yoyoyo

2010-01-03T15:39:00.000+08:00

hi everyone.
today's my good friend MARIA's birthday!!
she's finally 18!! and 8 more months to go for me!!
had a super awesome day today anyway.
and its awesome for no specific reason. i just feel happy.

EXTRA PICS TODAY:

2010-01-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

what am i doing? staying away from church?
didn't i make those promises last time?
but why am i now breaking them one by one?
i must have broke his heart.

when i told myself i didn't want anything to do with him anymore today,
did he send my dear friend to come and speak to me?
did he do all this to keep me.

ugh. homework.

2010-01-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

shit. shit. shit. shit. shit.
i have to start homework.
which equals to crazy amount of work.
plus i needa go to school on wednesday. dang it.
seems like hols are over.
SPAM HOMEWORK WEEK AHEAD.
argh. hate it.

well, at least seeing 1 person cheers me up.

xin tian di. xmas day out!

2010-01-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

big teddy!!!!!! i want!!!!! hahahhaa

my boyfriend. NOT. my bf is wayyy cuter. :D

check out that handsome dude who's my bro and my gorgeous mama!

the 3 of us!

missed me?

2010-01-01T10:24:00.000+08:00

so china bloacked practically every website i frequent which sucks TTM!
but missed my postings? i sure missed blogging. well, sort of.

this trip was like a crazy spamming of shopping for me. let me list down everything i bought

2 SuJu CDs
7 TVXQ CDs
1 Big Bang CD
3 shoulder bags
1 clutch
1 sling bag
4 no lens specs
3 headphones (XMAS pressie from daddy)
1 feather hairband
1 'leather' jacket
1 brown wig
1 pair of black boots
2 necklaces
5 pairs of earrings

crazy huh? i think so too.
i'll slowly show u the pics that i have of whichever items, but i dont have everything in picture!

things i wanna do before 21.

2009-12-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

kinda early, but it's a long list.

1. go to the movies alone. (sit in the cinema on my own)
2. perform on stage with a mass audience (singing/dancing)
3. home-stay in korea for 1 month
4. go for JYP, YG and... SM... auditions (kinda ahem, but i can't be fussy)
5. be kinda fluent in 2 other languages
6. own my own blog shop
7. learn hip hop and k-hip hop
8. play an instrument
9. join a spore singing competition
.
.
.

the list goes on.

broke!

2009-12-04T21:22:00.001+08:00

i'm broke. i'm broke. i'm broke.
i blew $100 today.
bought boots, singlet, 2beanies, shirt, tights.

i have no idea why i bought the shirt though. oh well, shall figure a way to wear everything someday.
one sad thing. laoshi is in korea, so there's no vocals tmr. but it'll be sometime soon i think. yayness for that. but i really wanna try other songs. hahahhahahha. wish this could last forever, then i stand a chance in CJSOPA performing crew next year maybe. then auditions in korea!!!!! yayness!
but that's just a wish. mum will never support.

anyway, for those feeling childish, go watch PLANET 51. it's a freakin retarded movie. it's retarded to the extent that it's funny. hahahha. was watching it last night. i think the funny parts are way better than the back, but oh well.

k. talk next time.

pissed.

2009-11-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

damm freakin pissed right now.
stupid asshole downloaded games on my old laptop making it freakin laggy.
then, he spoilt the system.

SO, while i was attempting to transfer pictures in sec sch over, his laptop dies on me due to the freakin irritating system failure, now making me pissed.
plus it was erasing some shitass memory.

SO, if it erases my secodary school pictures, i will no longer have any pictures of myself or people in secondary school cos everything's there. meaning, all the memories of the best years of my life are gone.

freakin asshole.

p.s in my vocab asshole is the nicest term i have for that person right now

shopping.

2009-11-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

went shopping with my family just now.
and, i blew about $100 on a top and skirt together. they match.
now what i lack to complete the look is boots.
i already love the outfit. it gives off a very rocker chic look, thus the boots.

then, went Sushi Tei for lunch. it was freakin empty at 12, but crowded at 12.30
damm funny. cos ma asked me to go queue first but it turned out to be empty.
then walked to Somerset area to shop, didn't go to Orchard Central, sadly.
but i got a hot pink jacket to wear in Shanghai!

in conclusion, i spent the most today. but its a fully subsidised shopping spree for me so no loss!

can't wait to go orchard with RN soon.

check it out!

2009-11-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

hey i know not a lot of people read my blog, but it'd really help if you saw this and help me on the poll!

PAMELA'S MEDIA BOX

yupp. if you remember, let me tell you. it's opening this holidays again!
so, if you need download links or stuff like movie reviews, and stuff, you can check it out here!
BUT, i really need your opinion so that i won't be posting stuff that nobody reads!

that's all!
love y'all!

2009-11-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

nowadays... its like shows i watch are a routine already.

Tuesday- HEROES Season 4 new episode (USA airs on monday)
Wednesday- Check out You're Beautiful preview
Thursday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
Friday- YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL new episode
+ IRIS new episodes whenever updated

the rest of the time-
MOVIES WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT.

so you people know i've watched New Moon. anyway, Today i watched Greta, acted by Hilary Duff. She's freakin PRETTY i swear. anyway, for people who don't know what it's about, its about this girl called Greta who wants to kill herself and stuff. but overall, it was relatively meaningful, though not exactly funny.

and YG just rejected a lead role for TOP in some drama. they say they're gonna use some Big Bang member though. but i don't think it's gonna be JIYONGie, so... no incentive to wait for it! hahahaha.

oh. and i think i'll start to listen to some chinese pop again... hahaha. Elva is freakin good. her vocals are like, WOAH. hahaha.

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TODAY

went to school for chem remedial.
after which, Kua said she was freakin disappointed in me. thinks my attitude in class and doing work is bad. she thinks cca is not what caused my results. and she gave me the benefit of the doubt that i don't know how to study instead of my results being the fact that i'm not doing homework properly and listening in class.
talk about harsh huh.
well, if it gives her the piece of mind that she didn't let me in VA for nothing, then so be it. but whatever.

i already feel like this is not my place. like i should be doing something more. at least learning stuff like designing, pottery, paint... you know. if i can't be an artiste, i wanna be an ARTIST. something like that. i wanna live in places like Milan, Paris, Miami, NYC...
somewhere where i get chances, opportunities. not here in a freakin island where the goal is to be homogeneous like the rest of the population here.

i'm sorry, but it's like sporeans are products by mass production. ready to be sold once you end your education. so freakin typical.

i don't wanna be normal and boring like everybody else.

stuff.

2009-11-23T17:50:00.000+08:00

finally. the girl blogs again. hahahha.

i came across this line today. maybe i should share it with all of you.

Music is... a higher revalation than all wisdom and philosophy

it's like. something that comes to me. music plays that part in me. to me, its more important than anything else. and to live without it, life's just nothing.

anyway, today i watched New Moon online. and guess what i'm gonna say.
TAYLOR LAUTNER IS DAMM BUFF INSIDE. HOTTTTIIEE. but he belongs to Taylor, so....

i also caught a bit of Hannah Montana Movie. Lucas is CUTEEEEE inside. but he isnt that cute in real life so i kinda gave it up.

anyway, korean stars are wayyy cuter.
only thing is, this time Heng can't complain, cos i'm not talking about koreans.

and by the way, you people should totally catch MNet MAMA Awards 2009 if you haven't. 21st Street Musical was Fab! and Jiyongie has BLACK hair now!!! how cute is that!! anyway, i guess i can share some pictures of the happenings with you people, videos... maybe some other day.

why.

2009-11-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

no pics, but let me tell you why i love LEE HONGKI.
1. he's damm cute
2. they say he's conservative = not wild
3. i love how he treated that lil boy on that STAR KING episode he attended.
and i love him cos i like guys like him. nice guys.

as for why i love CHOI JONGHUN.
1. he's also damm cute
2. he's the leader but strangely doesn't seek to stand out in F.T Island
3. he can play the piano and guitar and SING.
yet another cute guy. talented like jiyongie. good looking. just perfect.

songs post!

2009-11-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

ok. these are not even in the poll, but my first time so first viewers of my blog get it first. please give me comments and i love you people! hahahahaha.

i thought you and i was pretty much screwd up by the way.
but i still think i don't sound good in any of them.
which is why,
I NEED YOUR COMMENTS!!!!!

2009-11-07T07:37:00.000+08:00

something i read on a friend's blog.
it's by some guy called David Garrett if i'm not wrong.
he stated:

Music is the vacation of life. it is the moment where you do not worry or fear, just be yourself and do not care about anything except yourself at this time.

is this why i'm recoiling? because of how intoxicating music is to me that i'm starting to recoil. because i'm so fascinated by the beauty of it that i can't let myself be away from it?

by the way, i've started to try to write my own lyrics. don't think they're good, but there's always opportunities there for me to explore.

PW-ed out.

2009-11-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

PICTURES FIRST!

omg. PW everyday is killing me.
i swear i'll die from it by monday.
and i can't wait for monday.

i've given up proposing to my mum.
maybe 2 months of vocal lessons can let me improve.
then i'll train on my own, then try out some audition.
SM maybe? cos it's global.
i can't believe i just said that.

anyway, i saw this picture today.

PIG-RABBIT!!! yay!!! hahahhahhahaha.
can't wait for next week's episode.
i love how ShinWoo treats MiNyu.
and i just love Jeremy's cuteness in the show.
makes me want to give him a big hug and pinch his cheeks. so CUTE!!!
and i'm tempted to irritate TaeKyung. it seems so fun.
but i hate the Jian Nu Ren. aka, Yoo HeYi. disgusting girl.

next topic! SHINee shounds weird without JongHyun.... Yesung's voice is so different from JongHyun's.... it doesn't give that much feel to Ring Ding Dong already.but whatever. as long as i can find more pictures of Key later.

i feel myself recoil.
i don't know why.
it just seems as if hanging out is not what i like anymore.
i have to find something else to bring me back.
to stop me from recoiling.

accomplished!

2009-11-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

today when ah heng was at my house with serene, pearl and nguan han, i started watching BOF so ah heng had to watch it too! yayness! finally got ah heng to watch BOF. hahahhaha.
and guys' point of view of BOF is so different from girls. which actually makes the show funnier.
honestly, nh and heng's comments were so funny that it seemed wayy nicer to watch it.
and serene suggested i bring it to the class chalet cos 12 guys can give their hilarious comments. haha.

anyway, we were at YJ's hse with gabriel before that, and they played RockBand and GuitarHero. i didn't cos i never intended to go in the first place? serene dragged me there. hahaha. 'screaming' parts by NH were hilarious, and well, i guess it was kinda fun. esp trying to get 2 people together... hahahahhaha.

that's all for today! bye!

destiny is not determined by chances, but by choices.

2009-11-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

i just read this today.
what will i choose?
something i love or the normal route.

but deep down i know i've chosen.
and somehow i get the feeling nothing will stop me from trying hard to attain it.

. . .

2009-10-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

i dunno why.
recently just keep quarelling with my mum.
it's as if she doesn't understand me anymore.
she thinks whatever i tell daddy is an implication that i want something new.
and she freakin thinks some lame shit news reporting is a good job for me.
doesn't she know that what's good for me might not neccessarily be what i want???
doesn't she know that i want to have a shot at my dream instead of "wake up and come back to reality"
it's like she puts everything i say as some pathetic, childish remark i'm making instead of treating me seriously.
what if singing is REALLY the thing good for me?
what if it is what will give me true happiness?
what if it is supposed to be the path for me to take?

2009-10-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

chinese paper is monday and i havent started studying.
i'm so screwed.
and i'm damm worried about my dearest Caroline.

before i continue, URGENT ADMIN MATTERS!
i wanna mention, i only owe BIQIN, DAFFY, DIANE, YANNGEE, XIAOYUN bubble tea cos u saw my blog before my results were out.
and i'm being damm nice already. cos i'm actually ADVANCED to j2 only. not promoted.
so be grateful.

back to my stuff.

i swear i'm starting to like Choi Jong Hun a lil' more now. cos he's the leader of F.T ISLAND but he doesn't seek to stand out, he's good looking, he's only 2 years older than us, and HE PLAYS THE PIANO!!!!!
that's like the biggest incentive can...
plus he likes a more tomboy-ish girl, not those bimbotic ones, which makes it better cos i'm not so delicate. hahahahhahaha.

but i still love JIYONG ok. hahahhahaha.

anyway, mass picture spams for those who read.

ME STUFF

2009-10-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! as i'm so bored today cos the subs for you're beautiful and iris are not up yet, i shall share some ME STUFF to you people!!
but, to keep it not so ALL ABOUT ME, i'm gonna centre around MUSIC! the nicest thing this world has.

MY TOP 5 BOY GROUPS:
1.TVXQ
2. BIG BANG
3. F.T ISLAND
4. SHINee
5.SS501

MY TOP 5 GIRL GROUPS:
1. 2NE1
2. WONDERGIRLS
3. SNSD
4. F(X) maybe. i mean, they're not bad...
5. BROWN EYED GIRLS i have no idea what else to put. anyway, Abracadabra's nice

MY FAVOURITE FEMALE SINGERS:
1. TAYLOR SWIFT
2. LEE HYORI
3. BoA
4. PARK BOM surprisingly.. but she only has a single so...
5. KELLY CLARKSON

MY FAVOURITE MALE SINGERS:
1. G-DRAGON he tops cos he has a solo album
2. JAEJOONG!!
3. JESSE MCCARTNEY
4. JANG GEUN SUK
5. NIL

THE TOP 5 MOST PLAYED SONGS ON ITUNES:
1. HEARTBREAKER -GDRAGON [44]
2. HUG -TVXQ [36]
3. MIROTIC -TVXQ [24]
4. I DON'T CARE -2NE1 [21]
5. COLORS~ MELODY AND HARMONY -JAECHUN [13]
5. TAXI -TVXQ [13]
5. LA CHA TA -F(X) [13]
5. BODYGUARD -SHINee [13]

shockingly, there's no BIGBANG! i was shocked too.

MY FAVOURITE ARTISTES AT THE MOMENT:
1. JAEJOONG
2. KWON JIYONG
3. CHOI JONG HUN
4. PARK BOM!
5. JUNSU -character only. before u say anything.

MY FAVOURITE SONGS ATM [MALE]:
1. 여전히 -A.N JELL
2. COLORS~MELODY AND HARMONY -JAECHUN
3. LET ME HEAR YOUR VOICE -BIG BANG
4. RING DING DONG -SHINee
5. I HOPE -F.T ISLAND

MY FAVOURITE SONGS ATM [FEMALE]:
1. YOU AND I -PARKBOM
2. 말도 없이 -PARK SHIN HYE
3. LOVELY DAY -PARK SHIN HYE
4. MOTION -SNSD
5. DASH GIRL -YOON EUN HYE

k that's all for today people.
how about this. the more tags i get a day from different people, the more pictures and posts i'll put. hahahhahahhaha.

MUSIC VIDEO DAY.

2009-10-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

hi y'all!
today YG Entertainment, the best entertainment industry in korea to me, released BOM's music video as well as BIG BANG's new jap song music video.
BOM's one is kinda sad, but she's so pretty!!!
as for BIG BANG... AHHH!!!
the only part GD gets is a rap near the end, and he has to share it with TOP!!
so unfair right... and he looked so darn good in the music video, from whatever measly part that showed him.
but the song is still dammm good. i'm serious.

anyway, i'm happy that the court is in favour towards the dong bang members so far with respect to performances and stuff...
and guess what?? JAEJOONGie's Heaven's Postman has pushed forward airing date to the 12th of November!!!

seems like everything is going well.
and i'm in an especially good mood cos tomorrow's thursday!
which means i can watch IRIS and YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL at last!! yayness!!

k. enjoy the music videos. i'll be back soon to post other stuff. but expect me to continue going on about k-pop for awhile.

CRUEL KOREAN TV.

2009-10-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

i don't hate it. but it's so cruel. it's making me wait for all my precious wed/thurs dramas!!! and so now i have nothing left to watch. until thurs/fri when the subtitles come in.

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!!
i think i'm gonna die while waiting.

anyway, for you people who have no idea what are the shows i'm talking about, check them out below.

i just started watching this yesterday. it's damm funny. hahahha.
but it's like piecing parts and ideas of shows then making it out.
for example, it seems like there are bits and pieces of shows like COFFEE PRINCE and BOF.
but it's nice. you guys should watch it.

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this has got to be my favourite. IRIS!!!!
it's damm good. you people should watch it too!!
its like so much action. something like a korean version of Heroes, minus the superpowers and you're dealing with assassins in this case.

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in short. korean entertainment is still killing me. how can i wait till thursday to watch them? they're too good to stop halfway!!! ahhhh!!!!!

2009-10-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

ok. first up people.
I PROMOTED.
but i have to drop a H2.

but whatever. to celebrate this, i shall try to do a recording soon and send to whoever who wants it.
those whom i've sent before know what recordings i make.
for now, here are some i might wanna do. be sure to comment which you'd prefer so i can practice!

1. I Don't Care -2NE1
2. My Life Would Suck Without You -Kelly Clarkson
3. Hug -TVXQ
4. With U -Big Bang
5. Trainwreck -Demi Lovato
6. The Climb -Miley Cyrus
7. Crazier -Taylor Swift
8. Beautiful Eyes -TaylorSwift
9. other songs.

for other songs, please tell me so i can prepare the song k? :D

and anyway, here's a bonus.

i loved this cos of the back part where GD looks so cute!!!
and of course it's bong's favourite song on his album.

oh and BOM's coming out her solo song on the 28th!!! can't wait.
it'll be awesome. i know it.

stupid day

2009-10-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

today was bull.
before you think too much about it, let me state all the bad things for you:
1. even with moderation, only my chem passed for my h2 subjects.
2. i'm running the risk of retaining
3. i can't go to the sing and dance classes
4. i'm pissed at that woman

before i add on, i must say that i'm not pissed cos she won't let me join. i'm pissed because she thinks me wanting to sing is just a stupid, childish dream that everyone will have in their lives before they wake up to reality.

but what does she know. she doesn't know anything.

anyway, it means now, i live for myself.
i won't live for anybody else.
i'm gonna be eighteen next year.
if any chances to realise my dream come by before then, i'll go for it.
i'll leave the country.
and i'm sorry to say.
i'm not gonna want to come back.

screwd.

2009-10-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

first off, SORRY MEIYUAN! cos i didn't reply your sms.

anyway, back to my topic.
i only passed chem it turned out. i have S for physics and math, D for gp, E for chinese and a glorious U for econs. i swear i'll never get econs.
and pw is such a killer. boring and draggy.

so yeah. now i'm pretty much emo cos of my shitty results. not sure if i can promote.
and guess what?

yupp. 2NE1 is emo-ing with me. these are new pics in some magazine. eerie huh. but i love the first pic. so sexxayyy...

and the rest... shall be in the next post!

screwd part 2. better thingies.

2009-10-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

this is about better stuff. like, GD's hair is not a permanent perm!!!!! yayness.
and loook why i found out.

he was at Beyonce's concert. i'm so happy that he didn't perm it permanently!!! love him so much!! he's so cute!!!

another good thing is the new pictures for Fila winter collection by BIG BANG. saved some nicce pictures. the picture of TOP alone was not intentional. i saved it only for G-DRAGON. cos he looks so cute there!

and of course, some other bonuses cheered me up a bit, like,

and yeah. i'm still biased. cos i love my jiyongee too much.

MAKE A GUESS! (daffy excluded.)

2009-10-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!! today, i wanted to work out and i tried a new hairrstyle that's inspired by someone who is pretty and can sing well. someone in my favourite korean girl group. hahahhaa. whoops. too many clues, but anyway, comments on it k?

btw, just saying, but i love my eyes. best part of me! hahahahhaha.
i swear the heavy eye make up was disgusting.

and talking of hairstyles, my dearest JIYONGie!!!! why'd u have to ruin your hair with CURLS??? blonde's not exactly your style anyway. u looked wayy cuter last time!!

I LOVE DANCING.

2009-10-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. i have an announccement.
I LOVE DANCING!!!
went for Mirotic MV Dance Class and i came back falling in love with dancing.
[though i was already liking dance before]
so, i proposed to my mum Sing&Dance class instead of plainly vocal so i can do both things i love at the same time, plus i can learn dance choreography and doing both at the same time!! haha.

so, i have to write a proposal and study so that she will fund it for me.
kinda dumb, but like i said, i'd do anything to get closer to realizing my dream. hahaha.

k. that's all u're hearing. bye my dears~

btw, in case you have no idea what mirotic looks like,

and don't under-estimate it. it's not easy!

ugh. tomorrow's coming.

2009-10-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

omg. friday's coming. and there's nothing to look foward to. cos, tomorrow comprises of some lame farewell assembly, chinese and BAND. i'm not mentioning pw cos at least we're gonna have time to complete stuff.

things to do tmr:
1. get CCA transfer form
2. try to settle before band tmr

lame day tomorrow. ugh.

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today on the other hand, was relatively enjoyable. especially meeting up with my dearest TTs. it seems like ages since i last saw everyone.

also, EVERYONE IN CLASS PASSED GP!!!! hahahha. super cool.

anyway, on to the worse stuff.
like, i haven't started my I&R draft 2,
i feel myself expanding from not exercising today,
and tomorrow's coming.
and adding on, i'm in a super bad mood cos of band and chinese.
they're so lame.

anyway, i shall go now.

sand-castle!

2009-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

today was CDP at ECP day. so, being 14/09, we used the most amount of space to build our sandcastle which is more of a road, a city with the Great Wall of 1409 around it and mini castles and large castles inside, and a heart.

oh oh. something interesting happened today!!! something to do with brandon doing something to Bimbo's Kranji shorts.... sexay~ hahahhahahhahahahha.
EPIC SCENE.

oh. i uploaded some photos that i took myself using my baby iPhone and now, i gotta go do my pw since there's some dumb OP workshop tomorrow. blog again soon! miss me in the meantime my dears!

btw, in case you haven't noticed, my playlist has changed! hahaha.

some pictures.

2009-10-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

Most important are the bottom 2 people. LOVE THEM!!!!!! jaejoongie~ and jiyongee~
hahahhahahhahaha. JaeJoong is cos of his determination. Jiyong is cos of how talented he is. and both are dammmm cute!!!!! hhahahhahaha.

2009-10-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

first off. let's just say i hate friday already. know why? cos there's band.
so not motivating.
and now im stressed by ma to quit.

next, im too fat. i needa lose weight cos i don't want YG's director to come tell me i'm to fat and reject me if i ever manage to make it to their auditions. SO, i'm gonna exercise more everyday and put my motivation as TOP, cos he lost 20kg in 40 days after that same director said smth similar to him. but i still don't like him.

thirdly, i can't wait to learn how to dance mirotic and i can't wait to sign up for vocal lessons!!! hope i'm good enough.

fourth, i'm pondering over whether or not to take korean hip hop on saturdays. cos that would mean i have nothing to do from either 12 to 5 or 1 to 5 depending which one i take.
and i'm so gonna try my best at all these cos it's something i truly wanna pursue in.

and lastly, to ruoning, k la. i promote i treat you too. hahahhaha
and everyone. let's just wait till 21 october when i get my results then you'll know if you get bubble tea. hahhahahhaa.

i can't wait.

2009-09-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

i'm back again!

i seriously can't wait till after promos.
if i dont promote, next year i'm gonna devote myself to my dream.
and of course include some study in it.

if i promote......
i'll treat entire TTC to bubble tea.
i swear.
hm... ok la. i include CAROLINE and SOH ZHENYU in on this deal lorhs. provided they see it.

and of course, i wanted to post pics, but since there's some weird thingie with my blogger again, i can't so wait till after promos when i spam u people with my dearest JAEJOONG. and HYUNJOONG and YUNHO and KYUJONG and~
a lot more other stars.

and i think Park Bom from 2NE1 is damm pretty.
yeah. i'm jealous of her. hahahha.

SURPRISE!

2009-09-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE SURPRISE!
LOOK WHO'S BACK FOR THE TIME BEING.

let's move on from the boring stuff.
i wanna tell you people something.
I WISH I WASN'T SO COOPED UP IN SINGAPORE!!!
this country is puny.
and it's definitely not a piece of the world i belong to.
or at least i feel this way.

it's like i feel as if i'm not born to rot here.
i wanna be somebody out there.
and when i think of what i wanna be.
i know my dream since, what, sec 2? still remains.
wait. i wanted it since primary 5.

i'm telling you.
i'll do anything for it.
including turning myself plastic.
IF i ever get to do it, WATCH ME.
i'd turn into a plastic doll for my dream.

2009-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

i swear if i dont get that toolbar back soon, i'm gonna change to some other blog web.

determination

2009-08-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

ugh. why's blogger doing this to me.
i've lost my toolbar to change font colours, add photos and stuff to my blog.
ugh. can't even change the font size.

anyway. my plan starts tomorrow.
i'm gonna quit band.
i'm gonna try to mug for the next 60 days.
i'm gonne make sure i promote.
i'm gonna try my best to form a study group.
i'm gonna try my best to stick to my diet though it's so UGH and disgusting and unbearable as of recently.
i'm gonna make sure i look pretty by december.
i'm gonna be determined to do it.

and btw, yay! i'm gonna get Sihan back to teach me!
plus Carey who's my physics tuition teacher as of today.
HOPE!

i'm back.

2009-08-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

can't seem to post pictures or anything with that toolbar gone so bear with it.

my mum went for ptm.
cher told me to quit band.
so mum also wants me to quit.

i cried yesterday.
ya. cos i was so stressed out.
my first time. ack.

let's all analyse my recent behaviour.
i want to cry a lot.
i'm a tad bit quieter in class.
i actually ATTEMPT to finish homework. but fail to.
i'm gettine more easily irritated.
i'm getting more short-tempered.
so different from what i usually am. spot the difference.

today, finished watching heroes season 4. as in, it's like the second half of season 3.
SUPER SUPER SUPER COOL.
feel like posting spoilers. but i shall not.
ask me if u wanna know. i'll dish all out.
coolness.

BORED.

2009-07-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

Make your name by using the letters BELOW. Don't forget to erase my name when you do it and replace it with yours. REPOST WITH: "Does your name fit you?" in the note title.

A : has a smile to die for
B : is a nerd at times
C : can kick ur butt
D : great friend
E : has beautiful eyes
F : wild and crazy
G : HOTT!
H : likes someone
I : best boyfriend or girlfriend
J : is really sweet
K : gorgeous
L : a good kisser
M : can be funny and dumb at times
N : easy to fall in love with
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P : popular with all types of people
Q : nice butt
R : gives good hugs
S : very open - minded
T : makes people laugh
U : is loved by everyone
V : not judgmental
W : very romantic
X : never let people tell you what to do
Y : very HOT!
Z : makes dating fun

P : popular with all types of people > POPULAR?????
A : has a smile to die for > lol. as if.
M : can be funny and dumb at times
E : has beautiful eyes > right
L : a good kisser > O.o???
A : has a smile to die for

still not mugging.

2009-07-18T19:15:00.000+08:00

i'm slacking my day away and have not done homework including my EoM.
anyway, i watched HARRY POTTER and the half blood prince yesterday with BQ, Daffy and Ah Ma. but we could hear MY's laughter from the THIRD row and MY was sitting 7 rows behind us. hahhaha.

anyway, enjoy the harry potter pics~

should i start reading the series?
Tom Felton> Draco Malfoy looks as if he's balding,
but he's way hotter than Harry Potter.

sad but now better.

2009-07-14T19:32:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna sound as if im receving a prize, but,

THANKS to all those who cheered me up via the tagboard!

THANKS WITH LOTS OF LOVE to the sweeties who cheered me up when i was super emo today!!!

though i was super sad that i got 1E, 1S and 3Us, u people really made my day!

i'm really much MUCH better now. :D

ps. dont mind my random pics.

the love and sweetness in the cheering up proccess.

seriously depressed.

2009-07-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

i'm emo-ing now.
failed chemistry. scraped through chinese.
screwed up my oral.
i'm dead.
and i swear i was feeling better.

the part of me you never saw is probably showing.

2009-07-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

i am so not motivated to play.
so until thursday, don't expect too much.
i'm pissed that i'm gonna have to do make up PE on my own.
the conductor is threatening to kick me out of concert again.
my chemistry is a lost cause.
i'm gonna flunk everything.
band is making me stressed and depressed.
i'm turning more emo.

you see the smile but you have no idea what's behind it.

stressed. and my life is vanishing.

2009-07-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

i mean what i say. seriously.
my life is vanishing. melting away.
and i need a break. which will be after 9 July.

let's see why i can only break then shall we?
MYCT ends this friday
BAND has taken up friday, saturday, YOUTH DAY, tuesday.
CONCERT is on wednesday.
A LEVEL MT ORAL is on thursday.

check my compact schedule.
my only rest? Sunday.
this will kill. it's worse than O levels.
and i so need a break on 11 July.
let me rest my nerves.

forget the pictures.

2009-06-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

wanted to post Rob's picture but my com doesn't want to.

i'm gonna fail every subject this mid year.

the band schedule in the sms i just received is already stressing me out.

i'm probably gonna get emotional over my pathetic marks.

i'm probably gonna die in band for not practicing this hols.

i am deprived of a Youth Day holiday when i need a breather.

my head is splitting just memorising and thinking of how i'm gonna die in band.

and i think i'm too fat.

can my life get any worse?

it's like i made the wrong choice this time.

wrong school. wrong cca.

not cos of the ppl. they're lovely.

it's just cos of how much i'm giving up just to be in them.

my time, my brain space, and even my life.

i'm dead anyway.

2009-06-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

Taylor looks good in this pic right? hahahhaha.

his face looks nice in it.

would have placed rob and kristen's super hot kiss in new moon up here, but no, cos i might get jealous. hahahhahhahahhahahha.

can't wait for New Moon movie. hahaha. esp with all the hotties. hahahhahhaha.

no megan though. hahahha.

if only i looked like her.

2009-06-26T16:45:00.001+08:00

FACE THE HOTNESS OF

MEGAN FOX!!!!

don't deny. she's freaking hot. and i bet you wished you were as hot as her. cos i do. HAHAHAHHAHA.

2009-06-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

saw this alphabet quiz on my cousin's blog. haha. think i wanna play with my own quiz too. i'm too dead anyway.

Name? Pamela Lim
SELF given name? Avery Isabella Gold [don't laugh.]
Age? as old as Miley Cyrus. go figure.
Best Feature? eyes. nowhere else.
Current crush? Edward Cullen
in LOVE with? Edward Cullen
BEST thing that could ever happen? become a rock star cum actress. [seriously DON'T laugh. i know it's dumb]
Last movie watched? TRANSFORMERS 2: Revenge of the Fallen
Stars you admire? many. Megan Fox [hotness], Britney Spears [success], Speilberg [AWESOME director], Steph Meyer [well done potraying the perfect guy], Taylor Swift [songs, voicce and beauty] the list goes on.
Favourite Song? don't even ask. there's too many.
Favourite TV Show? Heroes, BOF

k. i give up. i'm gonna read and daydream bout Edward Cullen since yanngee dubbed me as the Daydream Bear.
FYI. Rob Pattinson is totally hot. hahhahahhahahhaha.

i'm so dead.

2009-06-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

did anybody mention that i'm so dead. i haven't really started studying. and now i'm hooked up on the Twilight Saga again. also, i totally hate whoever leaked that 12 chapters of Midnight Sun. it's a total betrayal of Steph Meyer's trust, and also, i can't read an entire book properly cos i've read parts of it.

and to add on, edward is more incredible and lovable when you read Midnight Sun. his love for bella... it's just so sweet.

anyway, today i caught
TRANSFORMERS : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

and megan fox is DAMM hot. hahahha. she's gorgeous. and mind you, i'm not les. haha. yeah. i'm jealous. i love the blue in her eyes. it's like pure blue. hahaha. and yeah. the movie was AWESOME. won't add spoilers here. hahaha.

ok. now i'm gonna find something else to do, so bye people.

messy hair zilian. not as messy as XX though.

2009-06-22T21:33:00.003+08:00

ok. i know i look damm stupid, but this is what i've done today.
OMG. i needa start studying. i'm so dead. hahaha.
and daffy. the hair is ON PURPOSE de.
i'm not xuxu lorhs... hahahha.
oh and dont tell me. i know the 2nd picture is the most retarded.

and damn. strangely, it's you i wanna talk to.
but you're not even online.
sometimes i just dont see the nice people i've gotten to know.

friday and saturday.

2009-06-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

friday went out with yanngee, biqin, xianglan, daffy and xiaoyun. xiaoyun joined us for the shopping only. the rest of us caught Drag Me To Hell.

those who watched would probably say it's nothing. but given the fact i have 0 tolerance for anything disgusting or relatively shocking, i pretty much freaked at the disgusting scenes. unlike yanngee who was laughing at all those scenes. she's nuts. hahhaha.

and on saturday, we went K Box!! almost the entire TTC was there. only XL wasn't. sad-ed. hahhaa. had loads of fun there. but was kinda disappointed that there wasnt korean songs to sing. as in, the ones we listen to. haha.

oh ya. oh ya. Kim Kyu Jung looks not bad, but not as cute as Kim Hyun Jung. and Choi Min Ho is kinda cute. hahahhaha. ok. enough of this.

yesterday was meant to celebrate xuen and diane's birthday. hahha. and we had fun! yayness.

oh, and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY AND DIANE [AHMA]

! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

1409 class outing.

2009-06-17T21:14:00.001+08:00

went for class outing today. i think my dearies know what i'm thinking of. haha. as in what i thought of the outing. :D

'something' cropped up so had to leave early. SIAN-ed.
that's not the whole sian part. last night my skin started peeling from last week, then today i got it sunburnt again. my NEW skin!! ahh!!

and now i'm sad-ed cos of 2 things.
1. daddy can't come back on friday and now mummy's making a hell of a fuss and being crappy and moody about it. which makes me wanna scream, cos being at home is shitty at the moment.

2. BQ can't come to my place to study tmr. which means it's me and yanngee again. haha. YANNGEE! we have to study tmr. we play some more can go eat shit le.

so now? i'm in a tired, pissed of, and sad-ed kind of mood.

i want the new iPhone 3G (S)
my sunburn hurts more than the previous one.
i wanna scream and run out of the house.
i hate my life today.

our world.

2009-06-16T17:14:00.001+08:00

if only i could choose all the paths i want...
i would choose a path. a path in the entertainment industry.

i wouldn't go by the name pamela there.

it'd be Avery Isabella Gold.

sounds nice? yeah i know.

i'd be able to pursue my dreams.

to sing, to perform.

to be a role model young girls look up to.

yeah i know it's gonna need a lot of hard work.

it's gonna need a lot of stress and work behind the scenes.

people might not know how much effort u put in,

but to be able to see a crowd going wild cos of you, it's a blessing in disguise.

BUT. the world doesn't operate that way.

it isnt easy to get in.

it's even harder to maintain the standard.

we don't get things our way.

we get what the world will give us.

we can't be what we wanna be.

most of us end up being what the world wants us to be.

we're thrown into the world of stress from the moment we're born.

we're given task after task.

the never ending work consuming our interests.

us, losing our priorities.

we're trapped in a world overpowered by money.

where we talk cents, not friendship.

everyone fights for themselves;

they've forgotten the significance of marriage.

some have even forgotten what kinship means.

when it comes down to dreams.

people say that we're being ridiculous. insensible.

they give us the route to take.

no independence at all.

but. i tell you. if i had a choice,

music would be my everything.

it'd be my beginning and my end.

it'd be the only thing i'd wanna pursue other than art.

the Arts call me over repeatedly.

but i just sweep them away. like they're dust.

i regret my action,

but it's obviously not what the world wants of me.

i need a goal.

something to make me strive on.

something i'd love.

something i won't regret.

but if a chance of a lifetime ever comes my way,

i'd never push it away for this stupid world we're in.

lalala~

2009-06-15T11:11:00.000+08:00

i want my almond shaped face!!! hahha. shall exercise whenever i can just to get it. hahaha. vain? yeah i know. hahha.

anyway, dlded ashley tisdale's and JoBro's new album yesterday. haven't really heard all, but ashley tisdale's Me Without You is fab! haha. go listen. hahahaha.

i borrowed my trombone home. but haven't touched it. i think its gonna be a white elephant at home. damn. hahhaha. but i needa practice for P Night. haha. try NSB Millennium. will kill you if you don't practice enough.

then there's the whole part bout studying that i havent started yet. hahhaha. shall start, or try to start on math later at my grandmama's house. haha. shall turn mugger these 2 weeks. actually its more of TRY TO. hahha.
cos needa pass mid years. hahaha. esp try to pass math. haha.

my dearest YANNGEE is coming over tmr to study! yayness! haha. really have to sit down and study. haha. no more time to slack.

hurting shoulders.

2009-06-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

my shoulders hurt. A LOT.
i wanna play waterguns at the beach!!!! i wanna use those HUGE ones. super fun.
i wanna go out with TTC.
i hate the tan line i have on my body.
today band was.... OK. but i got the feeling that the conductor 'shot' me again.
i was damm disappointed in lee min ho cos i found out that his ENTIRE face undergone plastic surgery.
i wanna fall sick so i dont have to go for band tmr. maybe sick for 12 hrs is enough? hahaha.
cos i dont like stressed times in band. makes me kinda intimidated to be in the band room.
and of course, i actually miss talking to someone. strangely.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XL!!!!

2009-06-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

today went out to sentosa to celebrate xl's bday and to have fun in the sun with TTC.
my shoulders ended up sunburnt cos of the gundu sun.
i ran barefooted in the burning hot sand which was actually damm fun. hahahha. serious.
we had lots and lots of fun tgt today.
and of course, we were exposed to the shocking truth of something bout the bday girl.... hahhaa.
ok. i'll let the pictures do the rest of the talking. hahha. enjoy!

out with my dears.

2009-06-08T20:01:00.000+08:00

today went out with my dearest TTC. not all though. and i watched the Hannah Montana Movie. strangely, the 2nd time i watch it it becomes nicer to watch. hahhaha. but maybe cos there are my super dearest TTC there with me. like the 2 crappy, gundu yanngee and daphne ma. hahahha. esp daffy, who was singing Butterfly Fly Away. hahhaa. the two of them were doing hand actions and going "hannah! hannah!" throughout the show.

then BiQin and XiangLan also damm funny. they only found out the cuteness of Lucas Till today. hahaha. which means they were like going on about how cute he was throughout the movie. esop XL. hahahha.

xuxu joined us before and after the movie. hahahhahaha. she was busy studying!!! hahaha.

its like with them i can be crappy and stuff. hahaha. also, its like we have lots of topics to talk about all the time. hahaha. we can't stop talking easily. there's no awkward feeling at all. hahahha. its just like last time. we're all still so bonded together.

damn.

2009-06-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

i go to popular and come back with Air Head book 2. damn. it means im gonna devote my time to reading it all the way till i finish it. and it looks super cool. hahahha. read bits of it in popular and its awesome.

oh ya. i also got BOOKS. A level workbooks! when i haven't even finished my homework. oh well, guess im just condemning myself to studying. hahahhahaha.
yes. condemn. cos studying is a non pamela act.
believe me. xuen and people will know. i never study, or stick to the thought of mugging. like last year. HAHHAHHAHHAHHAHAHA.

mama also got BOF soundtrack. that came with a giant poster. so now i have 2 posters of them in my rooom. hahahahahhahahaha. i'm in a very laughing mood, cos of xuxu. and her reaction when i told her my bro found Ed Ong's FB. hahahhahaha.
he still looks as black as charcoal like before. hahahhahahaha. whoops. hahaha.

i think my eyes look damm freaky in the pictures.
and my face is too fat.
hahaha. good thing is for the first time, mama actually said i sound nice when i sing Demi Lovato. cos i was singing along to the music. hahahhahaha. miracle. wow. hahahaha.

happy birthday.

2009-06-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HYUN JOONG!!!
hahahhaha. though he wont see this, but still.
he's from my favourite korean boy band SS501 who has AWESOME songs and superb dance moves.
and he's one of those guys i like in BOF besides my dearest KIM BUM. hahahhaha.

oh, and SS501 is obviously better than BigBang or any other korean bands cos of Kim Hyun Joong, so don't bother trying to convince me that other bands are better cos they're not.

BAND!!!

2009-06-06T22:11:00.001+08:00

hi ya'll! hahahaha.
today there was band!! hahahaha. the buffet was kinda ew. salty and freakingly filling. but i loved the gelato ice cream. hahhaha. tiramisu, choc and mango are damm nice!! hahhaha.

before that, we had games! there was captain's ball and poison ball tgt, but like not enough ballooons so didnt get to play cos they filled balloons with water and used as the balls for capt ball. damn. i actually wanted to get really really wet.
hahahhaha.
then there was musical chairs, then i, being the retarded person that i am, got kicked out at the 2nd round. and guess what was forfeit. M 腿. come on lahs. ew. hahahha. not to mention CJCSB people were there too.
and did i not mention that not their entire band was there so kinda sian diao?

oh ya! oh ya! for the capt ball thingie, we were split into 4 groups then combined with CJC people. i was in group D! same as Oli, Jun Rong, Misato, Si Ying, Ryan, Jia Qi and Stanley! hahahhahahhaa.
alot of fun people. hahahhahha. and carol(ine) knows smth worhs... (:
but he's not my type! hahahhahahhahahahhaha.

the kind i like is the kind like one of the alumni. dunno AJ or CJ de. hahaha. anyway, u people dont needa know. hahahahhahahha.

shopped yesterday

2009-06-06T09:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with RN and Liting. i got bangles!!! yayness! haha.
anyway, we went to orchard, then outside far east there was some kind of thing going on, then its like in the front there was one whole stretch of Lamborghini!!!!! and guess what. they look like the ones the F4 drove in BOF!!!!! esp the orange one. it looked like the one Kim Bum drove. AHHHHHHH!!!!! i wanna drive a Lamborghini next time too! haha. must earn enough money first. (:
yanngee... u aim for your porshe i aim for Lamborghini ok? hahahhahahhahahhahaha.

yesterday was one of the few days i went out putting on make up. hahahhaha. miracle can... haha. but i wanna dress like that on XL's bday too. hahahhaha. it's ok de.. cos its not very kong bu make up. hahhahaha.

later there's band, then band buffet. honestly, i dont feel like going for the buffet today though i might be able to make friends with people from CJCSB. hahahhahaha. oh well. today is my anti social day. hahahhahaha.
maybe its cos i wanna emo cos i can't go out with my dearest TTC people today to.....
hahahhahahhaha.

i swear i need to cut my fringe. it's making me look so... ugh. hahaahhahhahahaa.
oh ya. LOVE KIM BUM.
xoxo

slack.

2009-06-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

lets show you people some pics of what i've been doing slacking around and also, pictures of MY kim bum. haha. :D
yanngee's gonna kill me again.
i've been busy re-watching my BOF, and have not touched homework, so i feel like mega guilty now for not doing anything.
a shocking fact, but YES i do feel guilty.

going out with RUONING tmr. YAYNESS. hope we can see some cute foreign guys tmr!! eee!!! haha.
foreign cos now i'm having korean craze also, so asian guys can be worth considering though none are as cute as MY kim bum. hahahaha.

then there's the whole part of me not knowing what to wear. damn. haha.
shall ransack my wardrobe later.
anyway, korean boy bands are damm good!! haha. i'd rather listen to koreans rapping than americans. no offence. haha.
and did i mention that SS501 and SHINee are not bad? as in the sound. haha.

oh ya. did i mention that i love Kim Hyun Joong's SHADES in the picture i uploaded. bling and big and cool. loves~

BOF craze

2009-06-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

i want to go to Yew Tee Point's comics connection and buy BOF stuff.
i want to go to BPP to develop BOF pictures to put on my wall. cheaper than buying from comics connection.
i want to scream at kinokuniya cos they cheated me of $1.12 for the notebooks when comics connection is selling at $16
i want to buy the exact same set from comics connection.
i want to learn korean.
i want to go to S. Korea.
i want to meet Kim Bum, my sweet sweet guy.
i want to sing my heart out.

after awhile i think even Kim Joon deserves some credit. haha.

new moon.

2009-06-03T11:29:00.000+08:00

dont get me wrong, i'm still on the korean craze, but mel (melissa), i seriously think jacob looks way hotter in it, though, of course, robert is hot too. hahhaha. i mean, jacob worked out till he looks freakin' hot in it.

for you people to enjoy.

2009-06-02T08:32:00.000+08:00

i figured its time to blog though i tried to on sunday but IE crashed on me.
my non blogging period has been busy band period, and also busily going crazy over BOF period. haha.

there was the 25th anniversary concert : AJ DAZZLE at TRCC which has super cool theatres and dressing rooms that look super nice. you know... they actually have movable walls there! anyway, that concert was a blast. now we're all in prep for P Night, which is on 8JULY at the ESPLANADE. $5/tix
tell me if you can come and wanna buy! haha. but i hope all those who can come will come down and support.. hahaha!

then comes BOF. where i totally start hating my class boys for saying that they look gay cos they don't. and i've decided not to be undecisive over the 3 and i chose 1 that i like the most. haha. let's just say that if i'm given the choice to be with one of them, i'd choose to date KIM BUM over the rest. hahahahahahaha. now yanngee will kill me. haha. KIM BUM is super cute lahs. hahahhahaha.

oh ya. yesterday, i went out with the AWESOMERS to watch Night at the Museum 2. SUPER NICE. cos it was hilarious. hahahhaha. i recommend you people to watch. and i wanna watch it again.... haha.
we also went to Yao Juin's house, where we ended up not doing anything for our GP project and instead, were playing his XBOX. haha! ah heng's rhythm sense and mine are about the same. hahahahhahahaha. oh. and actually, that's like an insult to heng cos i have not much rhythm sense to start with. haha.

and sunday, i went to taka. and bought new track shoes. and also, i got 4 notebooks from Kinokuniya. apparently, they're notebooks from Shinhwa Academy.... and look super sleek on the outside, but on the inside, it kinda shows how much you like the show. haha. oh ya. i also got a hair band from Forever 21. and guess what. all the things i bought, track shoes excluded, are imported from Korea!!! woots! the land of my Kim Bum. haha. :D

ok. i shall leave it at that for noww.
xoxo~

2009-05-17T17:00:00.000+08:00

BOYS OVER FLOWERS IS DAMM NICE CAN....
love 3 out of the 4 guys. hahaha.

then yanngee accuse me of snatching kim bum away from her so no choice go change dp to lee min ho who is also damm cute.

talk next time. have homework. havent touched ANY this weekend.

2009-05-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

i'm too dead to blog something interesting now. so let me use it in point form.

today was the first chem lesson i enjoyed. with all that playing with water and the whole caroline trying to corrode my hand thing and the "love potion" thing, it became super intersting. and funny.
i went for band and though i didn't actually learn much today, i was strangely in a good mood though i was tired and actually didn't mind band practice that much for the first time
went for section dinner with the addition of a few other band people. haha! actually 2.5 to be exact cos the birthday boy went off after awhile. it was kinda nice bonding with people.
through the dinner i found out S likes this girl in tennis and some other really juicy gossips.
i think my mum was kinda pissed cos i reached home at 11.40pm which is crap. haha!

and lastly, i shall tell you that i'm gonna post some really nice pictures online soon.

i screwed up my interview.

2009-05-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

today there was band exco interview. and i think i screwed it up.
i told aaron what my senior said. he says it shows i have good conversational skills, but um... how does that help? haha!
and xinyi seemed as if she was about to start laughing at me everytime i looked at her during the interview.
apparently, she said i was funny. VERY funny. hahas. cos i was giggly. but i was nervous! not giggly.
and well, she said i lightened everyone's mood and made them more cheerful than before during my interview. haha. never knew i was able to do something like that. haha!
oh well... it's magic working there.

oh and i failed my physics. haha. and today during GP, i was told to read out my answer and i started laughing halfway. it might be cos of the "hating themselves" or the part where i felt so fake cos Barbie dolls are my favourite childhood toy. and i still intend to collect them. so yeah. it's so superficial reading that. ahh!!!

why is life so superficial.......

and if you asked me if i loved him, i'd lie. -TS

2009-05-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

today the train was delayed by i dunno how long so i reached home late and i'm tired, irritated and sleepy.

luckily we got to lobang this band guy's dad's car, so i didn't reach home too late. haha. THANK YOU!!

then, theres the point where i'm faking. as in, putting on a false front in front of people. for example, the whole thing with S, E and Orange. it's like. just for fun... SERIOUS THIS TIME.

ok. bye.

shopping with RUONING is on top priotity on my list... but i'm only free during the june hols...

give me a moment.

2009-05-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

give me a minute, a short short while to scream.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok. i MIGHT feel better later after screaming enough.

seriously. is this a joke??? and i feel as if the jokes on me.

how is it that a fb quiz ["What is first letter of the person you will marry?" ] points towards him, and later on i SEE him on a non school day?
this is ridiculous. and i feel like screaming.

it's like the whole situation is hopeless, and i'm trying to give up, then something like this throws me back to square 1 again. it makes me wanna scream.

oh. and the lyrics to Taylor Swift's "I'd Lie" seems to apply perfectly. "teardrops on my guitar" is like a close second.

life now.

2009-05-09T13:39:00.000+08:00

haha. school's a bore and band's like ugh..
but i guess with all the great friends i've made it sort of takes away all that crap.
haha!
anyway. i guess people should have a right to know that i found 2 more cute guys to look at. this time, i truly mean nothing. one is E. i guess some of you people know, and the other is from band, let's just call him S.

the one in band is the one we think looks the cutest in band, so there you go!
speaking of which, yesterday S was part of the team to throw this guy into the pond beside block 11! hahas.
i guess in some way they're nice cos they put detergent in the water so it wouldn't stink, but it was hilarious! hahas. and S was damm cute being part of it. haha!

and boy am i keeping a lot of stuff from people...

zi lian-ing has been the norm.

2009-05-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

i still can't believe Shar said i look like Ugly Betty...

some stupid thing on facebook.

2009-05-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

P - popular with all types of people
A - crazy
M - Makes dating fun
E - has gorgeous eyes
L - is a very good kisser
A - crazy
-
L - is a very good kisser
I - is really sweet & romantic
M - Makes dating fun

lalala~

2009-05-04T18:36:00.000+08:00

im in a good mood... lalala~
maybe cos i have more markers to play with now.
maybe it's cos i love my classmates (with some exceptions).
maybe it's cos i didnt have to go for band today.
maybe it's cos i love the new orange thingie on my bag.
maybe it's cos i've been crapping all day.
maybe it's cos i love the new taylor swift music video -You Belong With Me.
or maybe,
it's cos i decided to give up on eyecandies and just stick to being me and having fun! hahas.

nice day. today it surely is. hahas.

.......

2009-05-01T16:43:00.000+08:00

not meaning anything, but seriously. i think i look more chio last time.

shall strive to be that slim again! hahas. that's something to work for... hahas. and tough too! hahas.

cant believe the free and easy days we had last time! and how we could slack all we wanted. hahas. its ok! june holidays shall be a time for me to try to play more sports and stuff. hahas. i seriously think i look more chio last time. no wonder i had a bf in sec 2. cos i was CHIO. hahas. omg. i sound so.... EWW... hahas!

anyway, sports carnival was yesterday and shall post pics another time, but anyway, one comment. i'm tired and sick of it. so please stop. -provided you know what i'm talking about. hahas!

oh ya!!! today i didn't need to go for band!!! from ugh, to SUPER AWESOME DAY!! hahas. not entirely awesome since i have not been doing my homework and stuff, but i guess it's alright. i wanna get more markers!!! hahas.

lalala~

disturbing ZY is my forte.

i wanna take some stupid pictures. hahas. all the funny faces and stuff.

.....

2009-04-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

shit ass day. is it all the teachers wanna talk to pamela day?
first ms soh. but ended up not talking to her. postponed. OMG. have no idea what's it about.
second, horsey. that Bi-atch. ok. sorry. seriously very pissed. seperate me and carol. right. that's so NOT gonna happen. so tomorrow i'll fake listen in class and shut up. but seriously. we're old enough to take care of our studies right. so i don't know why she's such a [blank]. not as if she's permanent.

then. comes the part where i can honestly say i'm not gonna go boy crazy over him anymore. hahas. so not fun already. cos it's not fun when people are going about telling the entire world even though i'm partially guilty of it too. last time.

luckily met up with xu and maureen. took all this shit out of my mind.
we were talking bout guys and previous crushes and stuff. and OMG. interesting. hahas.
school's boring without an eyecandy, so not actually looking forward to it like i used to. hahas.
maybe if we go to cjc on friday i might find some cute band guys. hahas. NAH.
pamela is attractive to look at already
hahas.
=D

TEN THINGS.

2009-04-27T19:57:00.001+08:00

below are 10 things i would hope to do:

1. start a study group to STUDY

2. self study and mug

3. stop thinking about irrelevant stuff

4. slim down

5. catch up with my studies

6. play basketball regularly with class people

7. go window shopping with Ruo Ning, Caroline, TTC and Maureen

8. stop going boy crazy [with the exception of Zac Efron]

9. get a nice break from band

10. join singapore idol for fun???

Ten things i would like to achieve by the end of the year:

1. a report card showing i passed my promos and have been promoted

2. complete NYAA silver

3. a huge teddy bear. bigger than mine at home

4. being pro at the trombone

5. ability to write beautifully [scripts and stories]

6. sing better [i still think my singing sucks]

7. to learn how to dance!!!!

8. to be out of shit ass fun club and at least look less fat

9. to save enough money for mass shopping sprees

10. to have a great guy who'll love me for me.

2009-04-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

about the previous post................
seriously. i dont care. look at my face. hahas.
anything can happen and i can't be bothered. much anyway.
firstly is cos i think my feelings have not been sorted out right from XXXX. ccks people will know. i think.
secondly. it's stupid to hide a pic when maureen has done a good job right???

so it has nothing to do with me trying to achieve anything.
i'm so "innocent" can? hahas.

anyway, i think my only LOVE is TTC at the moment. and carol of course. hahas.
but i'm STRAIGHT.
so yeah. cleared it up? hahas.
i hate clearing up such stuff. makes me seem so pissed of and emo when i'm not. in fact. i'm emotionless at the moment. hahas.

speech day 2009

2009-04-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

what happened to the pic??

XL pose. hahas.

i look weird. with KEE WEE, CY and XW and of course, XL!!

TTC successful shot. SUPER COOL RIGHT.

BQ. closed your eyes?? hahas. OMG. miss Cheng Yiin's crap!

TTC + eden, QD and Mel

4/6 '08 my sweet beloved people.

eating. slacking. catching up. having fun.

i was tired.... hahas

what's with my face... hahas. and daffy. EEW.

toots!!! mel and kenny. hahas.so crap.

no comments. i think i look weird..

is it impossible to get a TTC pic?

where's YIXIU? late!!

what's with XL. i look weird. OMG.

i give up backspacing the spaces away.

i looked freaky. and BQ... UNGLAM!

4/6 my dear.

weekeat! xu! u ruined the pic!!! and so did mel.

weizhen and xu and me.

unsuccessful one. hahas.

us and the brothers.

hands? randomness.

stupid zi an.

lol! yanngee. lol lahs.

girls

how's my day?

2009-04-22T19:27:00.001+08:00

today.... is an OK day.

i got kicked out of band SYF, which is what i want, but i just can't take it that they took so long to tell me.

ok. but maybe i'm a little sad and upset about it. but nothing can be helped!

and the school band's pathetic. cos they're playing SYF PIECES for 25th anniversary concert and College Day. how dumb is that? hahas.

at the moment? i'm in a wanna-excercise-to-relieve-my-upsetness-ice-cream-eating kinda mood. i seriously wanna have ice-cream. hahas. shall ask RUONING tomorrow. hahas. or maybe class people. hahas.

then there's schoolwork. i'm so dead.

2009-04-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

i think i've come to a decision. it's the hopeless one. one of them.
____________[to be filled in by user]

maybe it's cos i got no confidence after the whole crap i went through in sec 2. also. never had this kind of luck. who'd like someone like me lahs. bad in all ways. not pretty, not slim, not girly enough. so ya. that can be summarised to hopeless.

if it works out, i'll treat carol to pizza hut as promised.
if it doesn't.... guess i'll just emo....
LOL!
nah...
i'm not that... you know.

anyway, i wanna take pics!!!
wanna take like one on one pics with everyone in class! ahh!!! hahas

tell me what u think.

2009-04-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

close people will know who i'm talking about. hahas. shall name the people i'm gonna talk about A and B and C.

A.
cute.
tall.
dark.

B.
cute.
taller than me.
not very tanned.

C.
some unknown TDH person.

which one would you pick. it's like. both cases are utterly HOPELESS. but still.
i mean. there's this part where i don't feel like letting go now that i'm so used to it, then there's this other part that tells me to forget about it.

shall tell you after i've thought through. hahas.
for now, give me suggestions.

unprepared.

2009-04-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

just saw carol's blog. Carol. you are so demanding. hahas. though i have to agree with most of the parts there. surprisingly, all i expect is the guy being taller than me. no specific height range. hahas.

just now i bought my new school bag from zinc and met up with maureen for lunch. hahas. it was super funny, cos she can't stand it that i told so many people. she thinks the whole world will know soon enough since i'm telling a lot of people outside of ajc. hahas. damm funny. i can't believe myself though.

then went home. sihan didnt come. mummy got me more post its from her office which only means... HEH HEH HEH.

overall. good day. could have been better if _________ [fill in the blank]
now i'm gonna start studying for physics

2009-04-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

if you've been snapped when i was being super random and bored and you dont like it... hahas. its alright to say! hahas. anyway, people i'm not emo-ing.. just. it's stressful but a perfect way to vent it out. hahas.

besides, other stuff has been making me feel better, like the upcoming speech day at Cedans (no idea how to spell) and ___________. smart people will know. hahas. i think everyone knows who i'm referring to.

and. CAROL, it's gonna be tough to get that free Pizza Hut. hahas. but i'll gladly treat you if it really happens. hahas. like super happily.

tomorrow cjc people are coming and i suck at my playing. omg. im dead. OH WELL.

also, today, i got hold of Swiss Cottage YEARBOOKS. nice to see how Ah Heng and Gabby looked like last time. SUPER CUTE. hahas. and Gabby looks super super different. sad i dont have a scanner... or i'd scan all their pics and post them on my blog.

but im not EVIL, so i won't do it even if i have the scanner.

and i'm so gonna fail physics on monday. can we like go out study on sunday afternn or saturday night or smth? hahas.